I just realized I haven't written in here in a while, and I think it was because for a little while there, I wasn't doing anything worth writing about. But anyways, things have changed.
The director of one of the theater groups I have worked with in the past called me up earlier this month and asked me if I would be willing to co-choreograph the next show they were putting on, Nunsense: The Mega-Musical. Being unemployed and bored out of my mind, I said yes. I had to attend auditions and had to sit through 2 days of a bunch of people singing (a la American Idol) and reading for parts. In a way, it was a pain in the ass, having to sit there for so many hours, but on the other hand, it was kinda cool actually having a say in who got cast in the show. Having to be there anyway, I was talked into auditioning myself...I sang "Holding Out For A Hero" from Footloose. I was asked to get up and read with the others a few times, mostly for the roles of Sister Hubert and Sister Leo (the one I actually wanted if cast). Since I was comfortable with the people there, I wasn't very nervous and did fairly well. I'm not trying to brag by saying this, but with this particular group, I feel like a bit like big fish in a little pond and I had been trying to branch outside the comfort zone and get into more competitive and well-known theater groups. Long story short, I didn't have much competition - I got the role I wanted, and it's one of the leads. I'm the novice Sister Leo, who wants to become the world's first nun-ballerina. With only 6 weeks of rehearsal to pull this off, I'm spending a good chunk of my own free time learning the songs and choreographing numbers. (And this week, we're gonna start blocking so I'll hafta start learning lines, too!) It's all a bit overwhelming and my head hurts just thinking about it. But one way or another, it'll all get done and come together - it always does. The one unfortunate part about this is that it's not a paying gig - it's community theater, but at least it's something to keep me busy. Oh, shameless plug - the website has all the info if you'd like to come check out the show: http://www.stpny.com
Speaking of paying gigs...I sent my headshot and performing resume to a local Hudson Valley casting company not expecting any results, and I was called to be an extra in a movie last week. It was partly exciting (I had never done extra work before) and partly boring (it's a lot of hurry up and wait). All I was told is that the movie was called "Restoring Grace,"that it was filming in Irvington (about an hour away from where I live), and that I would be paid $100 cash for the day. Let me tell you, being an actor (especially a background actor) is harder than it looks. It was an outdoor shoot and it was kinda cold - thankfully, we were able to stay inside when not being used and wear warm jackets and gloves in between takes. I also got a bit of sunburn from being outside around noon when the sun was high, in addition to chafing on my neck from a jacket the wardrobe people made me wear as part of my outfit. Also, the shoes I picked were not the most comfortable, so by the end of the 11 hour day, my feet were swollen. Thankfully, I was well-fed and the people I had to interact with were all very nice. I didn't meet any new BFF's, but it wasn't terrible by any means - just tiring. Oh, and I ended up with $125 instead of $100, which was nice. The weirdest part though? It turned out to be a German made-for-TV movie (based on a fluffy romance novel) that will probably never be shown in the U.S.
The other night, I had a bit of an epiphany - I decided that my heart's desire (what I want more than ANYTHING in the world) is to move to New York City and simultaneously pursue a Master's degree in Arts Administration (NYU or Columbia, perhaps?) and a professional dance/singing/acting career. Dance/Voice/Acting classes and auditions during the day, school at night, perhaps stick a really cool work-study job or internship in there somewhere...but my sister brought me back to earth and said "but how are you gonna pay for it?" Truthfully, I haven't thought about it that far...I was thinking maybe financial aid or scholarships??? I'm thinking about just applying and then see what happens and go from there. It's a Catch-22 in a way...I can't find a job with just a Bachelor's degree, so I want to go to grad school to get my Master's which will hopefully give my resume a boost and help me get into the industry I want to pursue...but I can't pay for my master's without money from a job. It's a horrible and vicious cycle. Gaaaaah. I would've been better off had I figured this out right after college and not now. I don't know....like I said, I'm just gonna apply and see what happens. Que sera sera.
The love life? Not so good. Haven't heard anything from army boy in over a month. No letter, no text, no phone call, no e-mail, no nothing. I'm hoping this doesn't mean he's decided I'm crazy and that he'll never speak to me again....I REALLY liked him and I thought he liked me too. If I don't hear from him in the next few weeks, I'm just gonna forget about it and move on, even though I know it's gonna hurt. I'll wait a little longer, but I'm not waiting forever. :(
I'm sick of being poor and bored and semi-nocturnal. I'm sick of hearing about people I grew up with all making good money in awesome careers, getting married, having babies, and moving on with life while I'm stuck here at home in this stagnant state. I hope things change for me soon...it's getting harder and harder to be patient and positive.
Sunday, October 18, 2009
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